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11:44pm 06/06/2009
mood: crushed

so i figured this is my only outlet for what i am feeling right at this moment. i feel like i need to record this memory.

i do believe that this is the only time you have made me upset to the verge of tears.
i dont know that to do with myself other than to leave your side.
i talked to everyone i can think of to cheer myself up.
they all think you're crazy.

"i wish we were ______"
"kay, night night"

pretty much the words i dread to hear.

that you dont want to be with me.
and that i am not good enough to be with you.

thats what you really just said to me.

10:00pm 24/02/2009
  ive lost touch of who i am. lets see if this helps

where to begin. 
how can i explain this in a way that you would misunderstand the obvious...

someone once told me that i wouldnt feel again
someone once said that i wasnt able to do this
someone once told me that i wasnt good enough
someone once said that you werent enough
someone once told me that you couldnt handle me 
someone once said that you wouldnt stick around
someone once told me that theyd rather see me dead
someone once said that i wouldnt let you
someone once told me that. 
someone once told me that all of this was a lie
someone once told me that..its all you.
blah blah blah...   
05:21pm 12/01/2006
Your brain: 80% interpersonal, 100% visual, 120% verbal, and 100% mathematical!
Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy
doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than
average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing
about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers.

Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious:

  1. Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%.
  2. Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%.
  3. Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 54% on interpersonal
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You scored higher than 55% on visual
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You scored higher than 83% on verbal
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You scored higher than 49% on mathematical
Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid
Wanna see a trick?   
05:22pm 15/12/2005
mood: depressed
R.I.P John M. Rogers
Beloved father and grandfather
June 15, 2005 4:20 PM
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Let it Start   
05:20pm 24/11/2005
  dont come knocking on my door.  
08:07pm 17/11/2005
  Meat is Yummy...all those poor chickens ...oh well cause they equal= yum. yum. yum!  
11:00am 13/09/2005
08:23pm 21/03/2005


08:23pm 21/03/2005


and i figure we arent fighting anyone but ourselves
..Our Town   
05:48pm 25/02/2005
mood: anxious
Live people don't understand do they?
No dear-they don't.
They're sort of just, shut up in little boxes, aren't they?
03:01pm 19/02/2005

i gots a fly mp3 playa..

and im so not greedy..cause i payed for a little bit of it.

yeah thats right...   
07:04pm 07/02/2005
oh geez..a rapist of the dead?   
09:57pm 30/01/2005
mood: accomplished
a tragic opera in my mind..and it told of a new design

...if you reduced the world's population doen to 100 people, 57 would be asians, 21 europeans, 14 from the western hemisphere and 8 from africa.
among those 100 people, 52 would be females and 48 males. 30 would be white..and 70 other. 70 would be non-christians;30 christians. 6 people would possess 59% of the world's wealth and those 6 would be all americans.
80 would live in substandard housing, 70 would be unable to read and 50 would suffer from malnutrition. only one person would be college-educated, and only one would have a computer.

TADA..how bout some math for ya?
yay..random survey   
05:44pm 26/01/2005
mood: whoo pretty colours
The \\
Last Cigarette:7th grade?
Last Alcoholic Drink:last weekend
Last Car Ride:today
Last Kiss:uh..hm..
Last Good Cry:november
Last Library Book:dont remember
Last book bought:acqainted with the night maybe?
Last Book Read:lord of the flies
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:..racing stripes
Last Movie Rented:napoleon dynamite
Last Cuss Word Uttered:fuck that shit
Last Beverage Drank:water
Last Food Consumed:cookie
Last Crush:um..
Last Phone Call:mallory
Last TV Show Watched:something last night
Last Time Showered:last night
Last Shoes Worn:chucks
Last CD Played:bonnie mckee
Last Item Bought:soda
Last Download:earlier
Last Annoyance:..'does she like me?!'
Last Disappointment:today...
Last Soda Drank:diet root beer
Last Thing Written:Die Hand die Verletzt
Last Key Used:t
Last Words Spoken:STARFRUIT
Last Sleep:last night
Last Ice Cream Eaten:klondike bar
Last Chair Sat In:this computer chair
Last Webpage Visited:livejournal

02:28pm 26/12/2004
mood: accomplished
{a.k.a Donald Trump}
{which would you choose?}
just waiting for you to come back...ugh   
08:51pm 05/11/2004
mood: loved
Your kisses are surprising, spontaneous affairs that leave the kissed wanting more
the hum of homework   
07:03pm 29/09/2004

i want to know what your thinking.

i didnt know what to feel today.

discussions are in great need.

but not here.


in other news.i got a new blister.


sun tanning to stateline tack   
03:56pm 26/09/2004
mood: you just don't understand

blah blah blah..

so an update to how much band can suck and yet be interesting and fun. well the aberdeen parade was a surprise to me..no booing and joking..just clapping and enthusiasim. then during the like 3 hour break i went into a vegetaitive state eating and laying. got back to school late and very hungry..after we practiced i got some fries to tide me over until this morning...had a party on the bus talking about cellulite without her knowing. very entertaining. got to the competition went pee..i know i know..i couldn't hold my excitement in telling you..had some nasty water there..we had the ugliest guide ever...yucky..then in the warm up i got distracedbut this one girls eyebrows...::shudders::..but then as we were waiting to go onto the field jess, becca and i had a very interesting talk about beano, pepto bismal and having the shits...then people started to look at us funny..but as we got onto the field..i felt that it would suck and guess what..WE DID..slightly annoying...everyone messed up their solos and i forgot to put my horn up....well got back to the busses and people were asking the most stupid questions..couldnt get undressed because dees an ass...got a drink from the consession stand.whoopee..but then the goup sat down and gossiped about mostly rachael..which i found funny..finding out later in the evening that shes telling everyone that she was raped...but anyways..thandi was groped by andrew..funny as mess..then abbey kept rubbing her boob against me. ..again i shudder...  then we got only like 2 firsts the rest sucked... the bus ride went by pretty fast..got a sugar high from pop rocks....fun fun..then i spent the night at tylas...fun fun..many things can be discussed over the course of one night..inside jokes will go on forever hehe....then i came home at like 1.30 ate  and then i layed outback and cleaned my bridle and stuff blah blah..i dont know if im going to go to the movies tonight..i have to memorize the pledge in french...hum de dummm.....

..there are a few things that need to be repeated, but in the correct fashion...


08:46pm 19/09/2004
You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.

What season are you? (pics)
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poor fred   
05:54pm 19/09/2004
mood: a very big BLAH
im afraid to tell you tyla..but fred may be sick :(

well i have spent my weekend at boring band competitions and reading. so intersting. well today i went shopping again. then i burned a cd. i <3 it. do you ever have those day that your not sure of whats going on? well that was kinda today. i just kinda walked around aimlessly and talked. hopefully tomorrow this pointlessness will go away.
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